TRIGGER ALERT: This article speaks of the need for our healing as women in the area of sexual sin and iniquity either as victims or perpetrators. If you feel it is for you to read, ask God to protect you from triggering as you read it.
This past week I’ve been feeling God’s heart for we His girls who are carrying shame, guilt, condemnation, anger, unforgiveness and a great deal more because of wounds received through sexual sin (either as victims or perpetrators). Even one encounter with a pornographic magazine can impact our whole life and hold us in its grip replaying on the screen of our imagination for years, even defiling our most intimate relationships. These experiences have held us in bondage and hindered us in being able to fully come into intimacy with the Father and the fullness of our destiny. He wants us to partner with Him and come free so we can bloom and flourish and encounter the truth and beauty of His love for us.
He has asked me to be bold and brave bringing this out into the light because His heart is breaking for us all. What we bring into the light is destroyed by the light. We are in a season of healing right now where He is wanting us free from many different areas so we can move forward. He is doing this in many and varied ways.
I myself am experiencing it at present either simply as moments of revelation and understanding, or through repentance and asking forgiveness and receiving His truth over my life to replace lies, or through receiving Liebusts, and in moments of worship when He has shown me the bondage and set me free there and then. Some He will do sovereignly as we position our hearts allowing Him to bring areas of wounding into the light. For some of us it may begin a journey over several weeks and months that may be helped by the addition of counselling, praying it through with someone you trust, journaling and taking communion or using other spirit led healing modalities.
For some of us, trusting Father God or Jesus is an excruciating thought. Just the word Father can be a trigger for some awful memories. He wants us to be brave and courageous now and allow Him to begin our healing journeys. I know that I know, that I know that Jesus loves us with His unconditional love that carries no shame or condemnation with it at all. From the many Liebusts I have done so far, I can categorically say that when Jesus brings healing in this area it is with grace, gentleness and overwhelming love and He replaces it with peace and joy and a wonderous sense of purity and cleanness. He was beside us when we went through our stuff. He has never left us. For some of us that makes us angry that He didn’t stop the things that happened; and I don’t have the answer for that, but if we will take a courageous step and trust Him now, He will bring freedom. Forgiveness of yourself and Him is a process and He understands that.
In Zechariah 3:4 is a beautiful picture of God’s forgiveness and restoration. He wants to pull us out of the destructive flames and set us free.
3 1-2 Next the Messenger-Angel showed me the high priest Joshua. He was standing before God’s Angel where the Accuser showed up to accuse him. Then God said to the Accuser, “I, God, rebuke you, Accuser! I rebuke you and choose Jerusalem. Surprise! Everything is going up in flames, but I reach in and pull out Jerusalem!”
3-4 Joshua, standing before the angel, was dressed in dirty clothes. The angel spoke to his attendants, “Get him out of those filthy clothes,” and then said to Joshua, “Look, I’ve stripped you of your sin and dressed you up in clean clothes.”
5 I spoke up and said, “How about a clean new turban for his head also?” And they did it—put a clean new turban on his head. Then they finished dressing him, with God’s Angel looking on.
The enemy loves to remind us of our sin, to bring his accusations over and over again, to defile the screen of our imagination, to bring shame, condemnation and blame upon us. The Blood of Jesus has already answered the accuser’s lies and accusations. Drowning in shame, we have hidden our stuff away from everyone including the Father, but with His loving kindess He wants us to bring it into the light where it can be destroyed. The Blood has already washed us clean, but we must partner with Jesus and appropriate the work of the Blood and the Cross. We don’t have to carry this poison anymore. He wants you to bring it to Him so the Blood can destroy it all – every platform the enemy has set up in your mind, emotions, spirit, soul and body – to wash you clean, restore your DNA, and restore you and your bloodline. Jesus has so many beautiful truths for you to receive about how He truly sees you and loves you.
Psalm 32 in The Passion Translation is a wonderful picture of what undealt with bondage does to us and how beautiful is God’s forgiveness and healing towards us. I really encourage you to read and meditate upon it. Ask Father to open it up for you and speak directly to you.
We are created in His image. When he looks at us, He is looking upon who we really are as He made us. This poison we have carried is not who we are. It is something that happened to us, or a choice that we made that may have come out of generational bondage or unwise decisions. It does not reflect on how the Father sees us. Jesus’ healing lifts off the dirty garment (poison) and replaces it with a white robe of righteousness. That dirty garment no longer has the power to dictate who we are (lies about us) or hinder us from walking joyfully in our destiny.
Girls we are overcomers. Very often in Liebusting the Liebustee will see/experienced God placing a crown of overcoming and victory on her head. He clothes her in a magnificent gown, walks with her through places of beauty, all the while speaking His love and truth to her. This is how He sees us all the time! We are His stunning, beautiful, powerful, and victorious daughters.
HOW CAN YOU RESPOND TO THIS:
1. Firstly we must use wisdom. Don’t suddenly go out and tell your church leaders or even your best friend. Ask Holy Spirit what to do next. Not everyone will understand or needs to know your history. Seek someone you can trust.
2. Ask Holy Spirit for courage to bring all into the light that needs to come forth.
3. Take some time aside with God and repent of any sexual sin you have been a perpetrator of and ask for His forgiveness and to wash you clean and heal you. It would be awesome to take communion at this time too. Taking this first step gives Him permission to take you further on this journey.
4. If you’ve been a victim, ask God to help you to begin to forgive not just your abusers but yourself also (because we often feel we are responsible despite that being a LIE!). Forgiveness is a journey, and God honors the small steps forward. Some of you have had horrendous stuff happen that God may deal with in layers, over time, but every bit of freedom and healing you gain is a victory.
5. Know that God hears your prayers and will respond to the hunger in your heart to be free.
6. Ask Him if you should seek any kind of professional counselling or prayer ministry. There are many available including Liebusting, Sozo, Cleansing Streams, Christian counselling. Your church leaders should know who to put you in touch with (you don’t have to share the details with them) or get in touch with me and I can refer you to someone. If you want a Liebust and prefer to have a stranger do it rather than me, there are other compassionate, experienced Liebusters I can put you in touch with.
7. Be kind to yourself and trust that even though this is challenging and confronting, God loves you and only wants your freedom.
PRAYER FOR COURAGE:
God you know me more than I know myself. You love me in all of my strengths and weaknesses. You declare that there is no condemnation for those who love you and walk daily with you. You see only who you have created me to be, free of shame and bathed in your love and righteousness. Father you know that there are areas of great wounding, guilt, and shame in my life that only you and I are aware of. They have held be bound in a darkness that I have tried to live with despite its grip on me. But God now I am asking you for your great grace and courage to be poured into me. Help me put my handle to the doors where this darkness has held me prisoner and allow you to bring your light and your great love to come in and set me free. I choose to take this first step, trusting that you hide me under the shadow of your wings, a place of safety, and that you will lead me by your Holy Spirit into this journey of healing in Jesus Name. Amen.